Are you the new person drawn toward me?
To begin with, take warning, I am surely far different from what you suppose;
Do you suppose you will find in me your ideal?
Do you think it so easy to have me become your lover?
Do you think the friendship of me would be unalloy’d satisfaction?
Do you think I am trusty and faithful?
Do you see no further than this façade, this smooth and tolerant manner of me?
Do you suppose yourself advancing on real ground toward a real heroic man?
Have you no thought, O dreamer, that it may be all maya, illusion?
 
 
 
 
 
more fatspiration tag clean up. this is a fat body. this fat chick works out, eats what she wants, lives life to the fullest and never lets the fact that she is FAT keep her from doing anything. I play hockey, go dancing, I am loud, crass, funny and never afraid to draw attention to myself. this fat chick will not sit quietly and meekly to the side. fat and beauty coexist.

more fatspiration tag clean up. this is a fat body. this fat chick works out, eats what she wants, lives life to the fullest and never lets the fact that she is FAT keep her from doing anything. I play hockey, go dancing, I am loud, crass, funny and never afraid to draw attention to myself. this fat chick will not sit quietly and meekly to the side. fat and beauty coexist.

 
 
cleaning up the fatspiration tag. fuck the body hate. fuck the thinspiration. love yourself. love your body. love that your thighs touch.

cleaning up the fatspiration tag. fuck the body hate. fuck the thinspiration. love yourself. love your body. love that your thighs touch.

 
 
 
 

the skinny guy going for the fat girl

alright. so I guess I should be used to this but reading what another person wrote on the subject of “fine attractive men” being with a bigger girl kind of rehashed everything for me. nothing pisses me off more than when people want to sit in judgement of anything that is contrary to what they deem “normal or right”. if I had a dollar for every time someone asks in breathless disbelief whether my best friend and I are dating I would be a rich bitch. because of how close he and I are many people get confused and think that we are dating. he’s a very fit and cute guy. I am a very chubby and cute girl. god forbid a man smaller than me find me attractive for any reason. when we’re at the bar girls will come up to me and ask if were dating because they want their shot with him and I say no and they look alternately relieved and slightly smug. no lie. every time i am asked and say no the girl usually says something along the lines of “oh well I didn’t think so but you both *are* sitting together so I wanted to make sure”. really? I’m so over it. it gets to the point almost where I buy into it. like maybe I don’t deserve to be with someone who doesn’t look like some underground creature. my ex happens to be a bigger guy and people always had something to say about it. I think it’s more acceptable for a bigger guy to date a smaller girl versus the bigger girl to date a smaller guy. I think maybe this is because of the traditional gender roles. the male has to be the big strong masculin guy and the girl has to be the delicate little flower. well what about us big bitches?! lol. I’m ultra femmy but people get the wrong impression because I’m larger and I play sports that are predominately male run. hockey and kick boxing come out of my mouth and all of a sudden it’s like I’ve developed a dick and horns. haha. all of a sudden I’m a “big bad bitch”. I don’t mind being that but can’t I also be a *woman*? can’t it be ok for a man who is attractive and fit to want me? and for society to not view it as “taking one for the team” or doing a fucking “public service”?! guys who love and are with us bigger girls get so much shit for it. in my experiences I’ve dated skinny guys, buff guys and heavier guys. ultimately what drew me to my exes was their sense of humor, personality, and lastly looks. my ex who weighed 30 lbs less than I was just as wonderful as my ex who weighed 85 lbs more than I. there were no differences in my attraction to either one of them. cuddling is definitely more fun with someone who us meaty though. haha. alright. I guess I’m done ranting.

-irose. iroared.